Is It Because I Am Black?

I wonder if he just noticed what just happened.” I was on a recruiting trip at a conference and it was lunch time. My white colleague and I decided to explore the mall in hopes of finding a place to eat. After looking at the long line and the other restaurants we decided to eat at a place that served chicken and waffles. There was no line. A Caucasian girl was taking orders and preparing food. We ordered the same meal. Before we received our order of chicken and waffles she asked if we wanted hot sauce and honey. We were both are from the south so we said “YES” without hesitation.

I watched her pour the honey into one cup. The bottle of honey was almost empty. She squeezed the bottle until no more honey would come out. The cup was filled halfway. Then she went to the back to get a new bottle. She finished filling the first cup to the brim. Then she filled the second cup only halfway. Next, she started to pour the hot sauce.  She filled the first cup, but the second cup was only filled halfway. When I saw the unequal portions of the cups I thought “She is going to give me the cups that are partially filled.” I waited, hoping I was wrong.  Sadly, I was right she handed me the half-filled cups.

I walked away wondering if my white colleague saw what happened. I also pondered another question, “Was I given less because of my blackness?”

The Hovering Question 

Is it because I am black?” I ponder this question quite often. Often I walk into spaces where I stick out because of my darker skin tone. However, I imagine many other African Americans ponder this question as well. But situations like the one mentioned above always bring the question back to mind. My white colleague was dressed similar to me, ordered the same meal, but he received more. I don’t know the reason the girl gave him more, so I am just left with assumptions. However, this is not the case in other situations.

The Hovering Facts

Black people make up 13.3 percent of the population in America. We make up 37.7 percent of the prison population in America. Black people make up 38 percent of the people in poverty in America. More than half of black children in America are born in single parent homes. Twenty-four percent of the people shot and killed by police in 2015 were African American. The unemployment rate for African Americans is 7.9 compared to the 3.8 white unemployment rate. African American boys are perceived to be older and are not perceived to have the same childhood innocence as their white counterparts.

I know that is a lot of stats and you may be able to forget them. I can’t. I was the black boy who was assumed to be older. I have family in prison. I grew up in poverty and in a single parent home. I have seen the videos of African Americans killed unjustly by police. I have family members who desired a job but struggled to find one. These stats haunt me because those numbers have names and faces attached.

The Steadfast God 

I am troubled by the assumptions and stats, but I am comforted by the God who is mindful and cares for us (Psalm 8:4). My soul rests in the fact that His love and His mercy is never ending (Lamentations 3:22). The hairs on my head are numbered. He knows and controls the stats. His sovereignty is enough to calm my vexed soul. However, I still have questions.

Though the stats may hover and assumptions may be many, my God is still on the throne. He knows what happens because of my blackness and He will never give me less than what is good for me (Romans 8:28; Matthew 7:11).


Would love to hear others share their stories or thoughts….


10 Reasons Why The Southern Baptist Convention Is Stained By Racism

Jones, K., & Williams, J. J. (2017). Removing The Stain of Racism From The Southern Baptist Convention: Diverse African American and White Perspectives. Broad & Holman


My thankfulness for the Southern Baptist Convention (SBC) is difficult to express. If I were to attempt to verbalize it I would exhaust my vocabulary. A Southern Baptist collegiate ministry was instrumental in my salvation. God allowed me to be a part of various mission trips sponsored by Southern Baptists. My theological education has been at a Southern Baptist seminary. I have work for collegiate ministries sponsored by the Southern Baptist Convention. I love the universal church, but the Southern Baptist tribe has a special place in my heart.

But I love the SBC enough, to tell the truth about it. Our convention is stained by racism. The stained has affected every entity of the SBC. Jarvis Williams, Kevin Jones, and the other contributors give multiple reasons why the stain persists, but I will only mention ten.

1) Insufficient Follow-Up

 “Since the formation of the SBC in 1845, the denomination’s leaders have passed thirty-one resolutions on race. Each one resulted from a growing realization that things were not right.”

Craig Mitchell (62)

2) Divorcing History

 “But I am convinced we need to make sure we allow the ghost of our racist forebears to haunt us. We need to be reminded often that we are no different from them and that we are just as susceptible to hatred, pride, and wickedness apart from the mercy of God.”

Dr. Matthew Hall (14)

3) Intellectual Racism

“Among the most significant instances of racial disparity in South Baptist life is intellectual racism”

Dr. Jarvis Williams (19)

“Black and Brown scholarship is either dismissed or ignored in many colleges universities and seminaries”

Dr. Jarvis Williams (20)

4) Inferior Theological Development

“Formal theology has been disproportionately conducted by white men and the context of their theology affirms has become standardized”

Walter Strickland II (55)

“Superior theological development results for the diverse collective of the church (across age, genders, races, and cultures) rather than from individual or believers  isolated in their cultural context.”

Walter Strickland II (58)

5) Inadequate Pastoral Guidance

“Regarding the particular sin of racism, at least three consideration are relevant to preachers and pastors: their personal relationships, their understanding of leading from the pulpit, and their understanding of what repentance looks like in their particular context”

Dr. Kevin Smith (74)

6) Prayers for Revival But Not Reconciliation

“Our prayers for revival must include prayers for reconciliation in our denomination. However, prayer is not enough! We must pray and act. If when we rise from our knees God gives us hearts to love all races in our denomination, then we will see revival”

Mark A. Croston Sr. (87)

7) Minority Access to Education

“If Southern Baptist churches cooperate cross-racially to enhance ethnic minorities’ access to education, then we can make the stain less apparent”

 Dr. Kevin Jones  (92).

“Yet many of those same seminaries, especially Southern Baptist seminaries, often have failed to recruit and retain minorities”

Dr. Kevin Jones (91)

8) Mediocre News

“The gospel inherently entails reconciliation. So-called gospel publishing that neglects illustrating this unity in diversity may well not qualify as “good news” publishing, for it publishes only mediocre news”

Toby Jennings (109)

9) Whitewashed Teachings

“the SBC has historically neglected and still neglects to teach about people of color–including African/blacks–who played significant roles in the Old and New Testament, many Southern Baptists view biblical characters as being white, including Jesus.”

W. Dwight McKissic Sr. (133)

10) Indifferent Racism

“What you often find is not an active aggressive racism so much as a passive and indifferent racism. I gather with my tribe, and of course my tribe tends to look a whole like me. People of different ethnicities are certainly welcome to join us on our terms, adapting to our context and way of doing things. However, don’t expect us to change. Change is the responsibility of the others.”

Dr. Daniel Akin (138-139)

Confessions of A Black Seminarian Pt 3: Letter to Black Seminarians

Dear Black Seminary Student, 

God has used you to encourage my soul. I remember so many moments where we discussed our shared experience. You come from various places, but God has allowed us to connect. Your stories have been inspiring and saddening.

I remember the time you told me your child was a victim of discrimination on campus. You have been disrespected in class for telling about the about the African-American perspective. I was there when they misrepresented you. I know how you feel when people call you an Oreo because you do not fit a stereotype.

I understand the burden of having to be bicultural to survive. It is tiresome, feeling like you to have to know about the dominant culture and your own to succeed. I know how hard it is to learn about another culture while trying to hang on to your own.

You have told me about your frustrations. You are in a white space and it is obvious. All your professors are white. The preachers in chapel services are white. The scholars are white. The administration is white. Most of the people in your class are white. You wonder most days “Where the brothers at?”  It causes you to wonder “Who represents you here?” You expressed to me how saddened you are we don’t have more diversity. It is easy to seat back, do your work, be quiet, and get through your degree.

I know it is difficult but, don’t lose heart. Don’t give up on our brothers and sisters from the dominant culture. Don’t give up on the seminary. They need you. Do you remember the time you explained the difference between diversity and multiculturalism? Your classmates needed to hear that. What about the time you discussed pro-life vs anti-abortion? You stated pro-life must include black people killed on the streets. Or what about the time you helped your classmates view the black church rightly? Your voice is essential. Remaining silent denies the seminary the privilege of knowing you and your culture.
Brothers, there are so many people who are part of the seminary community who long to hear your voice. They want to know what you think so they may love their neighbor rightly. They are wrestling with ideas about Black Lives Matter, Racial Reconciliation, and cultural differences too. Several of them might call you a heretic, race-baiter, or black nationalist. In those moments remember “A soft answer turns away wrath, but a harsh word stirs up anger” (Proverbs 15:1)  and “The way of a fool is right in his own eyes, but a wise man listens to advice” (Proverbs 12:15).
Beloved, it is tough being a minority here, but we must stay because Jesus prayed that we might be one (John 17:11). The ability to become one is a product of the gospel (Ephesians 2:11-22).  Becoming one requires growing pains look at the early church in Rome of Ephesus. Our oneness will not come if we chose to retreat to mono-ethnic settings. We can’t complain that 11 am is the most segregated hour if we are not willing to sit a few minutes in another culture’s classroom or pew.

May Grace and Peace Be Multiplied to You,

Your Fellow Classmate


Confessions of A Black Seminarian Part 1: Letter to Seminary Professors

Dear Seminary Professor,

The Lord has used you to sanctify me and enhance my ministry. Thank you for introducing me to Augustine and Justin Martyr. Thank you for teaching me how to do a sermon outline. Thank you for challenging me to survey the whole counsel of God. I am grateful for the work that you do.

But I confess your syllabus is offensive to me. Your syllabus leaves scholars of color outside the gates. It’s segregated. I have listened to your lectures on the Reformation to Modern church history. I did all the assigned reading and book reviews. Where were the faithful African-American believers? 

You taught be about the preaching of Adrian Rogers, Billy Graham, and Joel Gregory. But you left out the prophetic voices from the black church like E.K. Bailey, E.V. Hill, and Gardner C. Taylor. I learned about William Carey and Adoniram Judson from you. You told me they were the first international missionaries. But you excluded George Lisle, an emancipated slave, who went to Jamaica.

You advanced my knowledge of the Old Testament and the New Testament in your classes. So is there a text that allows you to continue to make African-Americans feel like Gentiles? Paul in Galatians 2:11-14 stood up and rebuked Peter for his racism. Stand up and rebuke prominent Christain figures for statements like this:

As for the lawfulness of keeping slaves, I have no doubt. … It is plain to a demonstration, that hot countries cannot be cultivated without Negroes. What a flourishing country might Georgia have been, had the use of them been permitted years ago? How many white people have been destroyed for want of them, and how many thousands of pounds spent to no purpose at all?

(George Whitefield)

Keep in the step with the truth of the gospel. Stand up for us in your classroom like Paul. The other option is to do what’s acceptable by the majority like Peter.

You taught me about the Southern Baptist Convention in Baptist Heritage. Our forefathers had strong convictions about holding slaves. They believed in white supremacy. Your classroom could be breeding more white supremacists. You must take action. Teach your students about scholars of color and the value of the black church. Without action, they will continue to believe you have to be white to be right.

I am hurt. I sit in class after class feeling like a Gentile. You want me to conform to your laws and practices for an “A”. You want me to leave my culture and history outside the door of your classroom to be perceived as intellectual. I confess I have sat quietly in your classroom, but I won’t any longer.

The theology of the civil rights moment is relevant in church history. The discussion of racism is part of the doctrine of sin. Proclaiming the bible is not limited to one culture’s way of preaching. Racial reconciliation and social justice deserve a lecture in your ethics class.

Your instruction will influence future pastors and denominational leaders. I beg you don’t leave my people out of your syllabus. Let your students know how diverse the church is. I plead with you, let your students know about the real black church. T.D. Jakes, Creflo Dollar, and James Cone don’t represent the black church.

Teach them about faithful believers of color. Use your instruction to bridge the racial divide in the church. Integrate your curriculum. A segregated syllabus creates divided seminary students. Divided seminary students will lead divided churches.


A concerned Seminary Student

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Get Out: Movie Review

I left the theater entertained, but with many thoughts after watching Jordan Peele’s Get Out. SPOILER ALERT: For those who are unfamiliar with the film it is about a young black male (Chris) who is in an interracial relationship with a white woman (Rose). They took a trip to Rose’s parents’ home. While there Chris faced many racial microaggressions from Rose’s parents and guests at their home. He discovered her family was kidnapping black people, hypnotizing them, and selling them to white people. But you should go watch it to get the rest of the details. Get Out left me with many thoughts as a young black male, but it has many insights for believers.

Informed Suspicion

Chris and Rod (Chris’s best friend) were very suspicious of Rose’s parents. They were doubtful her parents were void of prejudice or racism. Their suspicion of the dominant culture (white people) is common among African Americans. This is evident when they are entering into their environment. If you are a member of the dominant culture you believe minorities have no reason to fear you.

But history tells another story. Trusting the dominant culture has lead to exploitation. Trusting the dominant culture has resulted in reservations and the Tuskegee Experiment. What does this mean for the church?

In recent years church planting has become popular, particularly in urban areas. Minorities populate urban areas. Expect informed suspicion if you are seeking to minister to minorities. John 4 gives us a great example of what informed suspicion looks like. The Samaritan woman was suspicious of Jesus. Her suspicion was informed by the history of Jew and Samaritan relationships. This suspicion didn’t stop Jesus and it should not stop us.

Side note: Rejoice if you have gained the trust of minorities in a community. It is a huge accomplishment. If not, pray for God to give your church trust in the community.

Authenticity Reaches People

My dad would vote for Obama a third time if he could,” said Rose. Rose and her dad both told Chris about his political affiliations as an attempt to gain his trust. A couple at the gathering told Chris that they knew Tiger Woods. They were name dropping attempting to make Chris feel comfortable. It may seem acceptable to discuss what you assume black people like, but your assumptions would be based on generalizations.

Before the final stages of Chris’s transformation, he asked the question “Why black people?” He is asking why this group of white people want to transform themselves into black people. The DeAron translation of the response is “Y’all seem better.” I will admit I love black culture and it has a number characteristics that make it unique. Every culture has distinctive features that make it unique and God made them that way. Embrace the culture God has given you.

If you want to evangelize to minorities don’t disqualify yourself (in our eyes) by attempting to imitate behaviors that are associated with black culture. Becoming all things to all men (1 Corinthians 9:19-23) still requires you to be culturally appropriate. In other words, stay in your lane so some might be saved.

Hope for Interracial Couples

Get Out brought to light several significant struggles an interracial couple can have. The most significant is a lack of understanding about cultural distinctions. For example, Rose was unaware that sometimes black women disagree with interracial relationships. Black men, who date white women sometimes get mean looks that imply “Why is he with her and not a black woman?” I digress if you would like to know more about that click here. The main point is interracial relationships are hard, but not impossible.

I walked out of the theater thinking this film made the viewers think being in an interracial relationship is scary. In case you were wondering it is very unlikely you or your significant other will be hypnotized, auctioned off, and end up in a sunken place. Interracial relationships can be wonderful and flourish.

Interracial relationships can thrive through the power of the gospel. The gospel reconciles cultures and makes us fellow citizens (Ephesian 2:11-22). Gospel-centered compassion makes us love our neighbor, despite history (Luke 10:25-37). The gospel alters how we receive members of the body of Christ (Philemon). The gospel can change your prejudices along with those of your family and friends. Finally, interracial relationships are a reflection of an eschatological reality (Revelation 7:9). They are an earthly picture of what heavenly unity looks like.

Should You Go See It?

Yes, if you are seeking to receive the social commentary and have a discussion about it. Forewarning, it does contain a number curse words.

No, if you are looking for a funny, thrilling, or scary movie. It has a much deeper message than most movies in those selected genres.

Get Out offers many other insights that would be helpful for believers. However, I believe you can get better social commentary from minorities who are part of the body of Christ.

“Why We Can’t Wait?” By Dr. Martin Luther King Jr.

Happy Martin Luther King Jr. Day! Take today to ponder the truth of these quotes and how they still apply to today. Ponder how the church can help further the legacy of Dr. King and what part can you play?

These are excerpts taken from Rev. Dr. Martin Luther King Jr.’s book Why We Can’t Wait?


“Undeniably, the Negro had been an object of sympathy and wore the scars of deep grievances, but the nation had come to count on him as a creature who could suffer quietly  endure and silently suffer and patiently wait”

“Perhaps it is easy for those who have never felt the stinging darts of segregation to say “Wait””

“when you are forever fighting a degenerating sense of “nobodiness”–then you will understand why we find it difficult to wait. There comes a time when the cup of endurance runs over, and men are no longer willing to be plunged into the abyss of despair.” (BLM)

“I have almost reached the regrettable conclusion that the Negro’s great stumbling block in his stride toward freedom is not the White Citizens’ Counciler or the Ku Klux Klanner, but the white moderate who is more devoted to “order” than to justice; who prefers a negative peace which is the presence of tension to a positive peace which is the presence of justice; who constantly says: “I agree with you in the goal you seek, but I cannot agree with your methods of direct actions”; who is paternalistically believes he can set the timetable for another man’s freedom; who lives by a mythical concept of time  and who constantly advises the Negro to wait for a “more convenient season.”


there is a certain irony in the picture of his (the Negro) country championing freedom in foreign lands and failing to ensure that freedom to twenty million of its own.”

“Anyone who lives inside the United States can never be considered an outsider anywhere within its bounds.”

“It is unfortunate that demonstrations are taking place in Birmingham, but it is even more unfortunate that the city’s white power structure left the Negro with no alternative”

“For too long the depth of racism in American life  has been underestimated.”

“It is this tangled web of prejudice from which many Americans now seek to liberate themselves without realizing now deeply it has been woven into their consciousness.”

“We need a powerful sense of determination to banish the ugly blemish of racism scarring the image of America.”

“The sooner our society admits that the Negro Revolution is no momentary outburst soon to subside into placid passivity, the easier the  future will be for us all.”


“When he seeks opportunity, he is told, in effect, to lift himself by his own bootstraps, advice which does not take into account the fact that he is barefoot.”


I suggested that only a “dry as dust” religion prompts a minister to extol the glories of heaven while ignoring the social conditions  that cause men an earthly hell”

“We did not take this radical step without prolonged and prayerful consideration.”

“God’s companionship does not stop at the door of the jail cell.”

“Of course, there is nothing new about this kind of civil disobedience. It was evidenced sublimely in the refusal of Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego to obey the laws of Nebuchadnezzar, on the ground that is higher moral law was at stake.”


“The ultimate tragedy of Birmingham was not the brutality of the bad people, but the silence of good people”

“Lukewarm acceptance is much more bewildering than outright rejection.”

“We will have to repent in this generation not merely for the hateful words and actions of the bad people but for the appalling silence of the  good people.”


“Injustice anywhere is a threat to justice  everywhere.”


“I am not afraid of the word tension. I have earnestly opposed violent tension, but there is a type of constructive, nonviolent tension which is necessary for growth”

White Voices

“A few white voices spoke out boldly, but few people listened with sympathy.”


“A movement that changes both people and institutions is a revolution.”


“Solutions to the complex plight of the Negro will not be easy. This does not signify that they are impossible.”

“Unity has never meant uniformity”

“It is impossible to create a formula for the future which does not take into account that our society has been doing something special against the Negro for hundreds of years. How then can he be absorbed into the mainstreams of American life if we do not do something special for him now, in order to balance the equation and equip him to compete on a just and equal basis?”


Take Time To Be Holy and New Years Resolutions

Take time to be holy.  Many began the year with an unshakable devotion to  New Year’s resolutions, but that devotion will die by February. It is hard to teach a legless dog how to walk.  Often, these resolutions ignore the real issue, sin. Working out will make you a healthy sinner. Getting organized turns you into a put together wretch. Saving more money makes you a rebel with a larger savings account. It is not unrighteous to set resolutions. But they often ignore the sin that lies beneath the behavior. In other words, they seek to change the fruit and not the root. I propose believers should pursue lifelong holiness and not periodical resolutions.

New Year, No Change

44% of Americans make New Year’s resolutions yet, only 8% fulfill them.  The reality is that few individuals have made immediate and significant life changes because of a dramatic New Year’s resolution,” says Paul Tripp. New Year’s resolutions may fuel behavior modification for a while, but they rarely alter our lives. Our flesh is too powerful. Our sin attacks every good intention. We can’t trust ourselves because we are deceitful and sick (Jeremiah 17:9).  We don’t need to pursue a yearly commitment to behavioral modification. We need to pursue a lifelong commit to holiness.

Little Moment of Change

We have all heard the testimonies in church about when God dramatically delivers a person. The story begins with the person telling how they were strung out on drugs, addicted to alcohol, or lived in sexual immorality. Then God saved them and one day they were completely delivered from a particular sin. Praise God he still radically saves people! But these testimonies are the exceptions, not the rule.

Salvation happens in an instant but, sanctification takes a lifetime. Most Christians take small steps to crawl out of the grasp of particular sins, which takes years.  The ideology behind New Year’s resolutions says,  “You have 365 days to change” and if you can’t change in a year you are a failure. Sanctification is a long, hard road that is filled with failure. The recovering alcoholics fail to stay sober numerous days. It is the day-after-day small decisions not to drink that help them have sober days. The journey to human transformation consists of many little steps.

“The fact of the matter is that human transformation is more of a mundane process. Changes typically take place in ten thousand little moments, not one life-altering event.” Paul Tripp

Pursue Holiness

Without holiness, no can please the Lord (Hebrews 12:14). The Lord has called us to be holy in all our conduct and to be holy as he is holy (1 Peter 1:15-16). God has predestined us to be holy like him (Romans 8: 29).  The pursuit of holiness requires diligence and effort. It is a lifelong task. God has commanded us to be holy but it seems like an impossible endeavor. How can we become holy throughout our life if we can’t change a sinful behavior in 365 days?

How can we become holy? It is through the wonderful work of the spirit of God and the Word of God called sanctification. The good news is the weight of becoming holy is not completely on us. We do have to work out our salvation with fear and trembling (Philippians 2:12), but we are not alone (Matt. 28:20). When we fail on our journey to holiness we can know we are under grace (Romans 6:14) and there is no more condemnation for us (Romans 8:1). The Christian journey is a marathon, not a sprint. It is not about how fast we complete our race but if we are running the race with endurance.

Beloved, let us put aside the pursuit to recreate ourselves in 365 days. Let us pursue the lifelong goal of holiness. If we wage war on our sin our habits will change. Slothfulness will be replaced by biblical productivity. Disorganization will be overcome by a desire to do everything decently and in order. The urge to spend frivolously will be overpowered by the longing to be a good steward of God’s gifts. Pursue holiness to attack the root and change the fruit.

Don’t cancel the gym membership or plan to eat healthier. You don’t have to cancel your plans of becoming more organized. Keep your resolutions but ponder how are they going to help you pursue holiness. 

Take time to be holy, the world rushes on;

Spend much time in secret, with Jesus alone.

By looking to Jesus, like Him thou shalt be;

Thy friends in thy conduct His likeness shall see.

William D. Longstaff


Bridges, Jerry. The Pursuit of Holiness. Colorado Springs: Navpress, 1978.